Hello again!

Hey guys,

So things have been getting better but worse as well so lets start with the good things, so I am getting better at hiding things and I am starting making the decisions that are better for me, so rowing was a really bad spot for me it was draining my energy as well as making me feel like shit to be honest,  so I have been trying to distance myself from the bad thins, I have been getting more involved with coaching the youngest squad at my rowing club and I am loving every second of it, they make me happy and they don't understand how good they are for me, so a good thank you to them but I hope that they are not reading this...My parents aren't very happy with these changes but it's my life not theirs.

So the bad things... I have not been looking after myself at all like I am getting ill a lot of the time even if it is something small it will last for a few days at least, I have lost a lot of muscle from not doing much exercise, I don't really get much sleep but self harming has gone down a lot well it is not as frequent, but my friend Sophie has been there for me recently and it has helped a lot. I have also been enjoying watching streamers and watching them play games like Minecraft and H1z1 i would love to stream someday <3 I wish ;)

So I left high school today it was officially my last day (Yayyy) I am so glad to get away from that place and i hope i don't go back for sixth form, I just need the grades to go to my dream college!! Everyone is at prom tonight but I am not going cos I get panic attacks and I get self conscious so I know i wouldn't enjoy it but I am distracting myself from social media by talking to you guys!! <3 if anyone is actually reading this that is... probably not

Anyway love all of you guys <3

Stay Strong

Enna <3 xxx